So it turns out it totally makes sense that I'm freaking out. I have turned my life upside down - without knowing what upside down is - in the course of around 3 days. I have taken action to let go of things which grounded me but made me feel trapped because they weren't really good for me - the guy, the job, my religion - without knowing what is good for me. I don't have any idea in the world, where I'm going to end up. I don't know what will really make me happy. I am terrified to make any decisions though I feel I need to.
Yes, I'm freaked out and that is totally cool.
Turns out I believe in myself, if I could do this. Otherwise, I would not be able to do this.
Also, turns out it's really difficult to be different. To not fit in exactly how I should fit in. I'm different. I figure one can spend their whole lives trying to get used to being different. It's so easy to feel guilty about the difference. But the difference is what will make me happy in the end. It is what will make me really understand who and what I am.
It's hard as hell but it is what needs to happen.
QE
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