Intensity is not the word

I just came back from another 1st date. Seriously, I don't know what to think. It was so intense! And this after returning from Shabbat in Tzfat (Safed) in the Galil (Galilee). Gorgeous place. Up in high mountains with lots of rolling mountains to look at almost every place you turn. Lots of very spiritually aware people, striving to understand God and everything that he is (the world, themselves...). Lots of talking about the deeper meanings of things.

Then I went out with this guy. I saw his profile online. He sounds very special. His pictures were pretty cute.

He is so different than the picture I'd drawn for myself in my head. He looks quite different than his pictures. You can see that they are him (I just looked at his profile again) but he looks so different.

In general I'm getting bad feelings. It was, as I said, so intense. We were talking almost the whole time about my issues. Religious, mostly. But he's very sure of himself and I felt like he kept telling me what to do. I felt like it was coming from a place of wanting to support/help but that's not what I need. I need support. The kind that just is there next to you, holding your hand. Maybe a little nudge here and there but not right out, "You should go there," or, "You should do that." If anything it's one more thing/person trying to tell me what to do. Even if it's coming from a place of him wanting me to finally really do what I need/want to do, it's not the right way to get me to do it.

I wonder if it hadn't been like that, how it would have been?

He writes in his letter/profile that he thinks he knows everything but laughs because he knows he knows nothing. Well, I can see that he knows tons and does think he knows TONS. But that doesn't mean he can tell me what I should do.

I loved a few things about him. First of all, he's very cute. Also, he's smart. He thinks. He really tries, and usually is, a good listener. He cares about other people's feelings. He wants to be nice. He is nice.

He has great, innovative ideas.

I'm almost 100% sure I'd go out with him again but I'm not sure I can take the intensity. I don't mean 1 more time. I suppose I could do that... I mean in general.

QE