Nothing new

Why in the world would anyone want to read a posting called, "Nothing new." It pretty much would mean that there will be nothing new to read here. Well, it doesn't mean that for sure but who wants to take the chance and possibly waste their time, just to find out if, in fact, there is nothing new or if, by chance, there is.

I called this posting "Nothing new" because that is how I feel. It's the same stuff going through my head and through my hands into the computer, over and over again. "I'm unhappy." "I don't know what I'm doing with myself." "The boy did this, the boy didn't do that."

Anyway, what can I do. This really is what's going on so I'm just gonna have to keep writing as much from the heart as possible, even if it seems redundant.

I was so unbelievably tired from yesterday. Interviewing all afternoon. And yet I'm still very unsure that it's the right thing for me to take a full-time job in my home-town right now because really I think I need to get away for a while. And once I take a full-time job here, I've decided a lot of things. I've decided to stay in my city at least for another few months (pretty much 4, minimum). I've decided that I am going to spend most of my waking hours working. That means I'm also deciding to stop a whole bunch of other things.

But maybe I'll love it. Maybe that is what I need. The bottom line is that I need a big change. This would be a big change. I've never worked full-time. I've never worked in a company like that. And though it's a telecommunications company, they decided to interview me for jobs in the office instead of jobs on the calling floor. That's cool.

Both the jobs I was interviewed for could really be interesting. They could be exciting (relatively), challenging (I hope not too challening!). The people who interviewed me all seemed really cool and nice. The whole place seemed nice.

QE