I am a hero

I started something new. Something I felt the need to mull over in my head for a few months and then psych myself up for for a few weeks.

But I'm so tired I don't feel like writing about it now. Damn. Why do I feel like I have so many interesting things I could and want to write about but then when it comes down to it, I don't really feel like writing or I don't really feel like I have anything to write. Question mark.

But I'm so proud of myself! I started this email list that I was so scared of starting. I finally sent out an email to lots of people telling them about it. I was so nervous! I was so scared it's gonna "fail". But does it really matter if it fails? I'm just so proud of myself that I even tried.

OK fine, I do want it to succeed. But even if it doesn't, it's not a loss but a gain. I learned I can do things that are new and scary and putting myself out there and I'll have learned, if it fails, that it's not the worst thing in the world if it fails.

Maybe I should make a business card for it. That's an idea! Or not. Where would I even give it out!

I'll probably have to start calling individual shuls and stuff to ask them to post. I know what I want to say to them in order to convince them. I think it'll be convincing.

K, I feel so boring.

QE