People like real

What is it that's made people like my writing? It's my realness. It is when I'm trying to really write what's really going on in my head that people give me positive feedback. Is it only then? I don't know. But it definitely sticks out, especially from my creative writing course.

I'm considering getting back into blogging. Is it a good idea now that I have my writing course? We have a website where I could post things so maybe I should keep my stuff for that. But truthfully, I won't post everything but my blog is a place where I would post a lot more of my stuff.

I am trying to figure out what I need in order to get myself writing. Writing good. And writing good stuff.

One thing that was pretty good for me was when the teacher told us to just listen for 20 minutes, not think about writing, and then write. I like (don't love but at least like) what came out after that exercise. I must stop, think, listen. Listen around me and listen to myself.

My teacher said something really good. He said that chances are, in order for me to do something useful, I will need to use all of myself. And when part of me is worrying about, "Will it sell," and, "Will people like it," etc., then not all of me is in my writing process.

And it is amazing how almost everything he says about writing, is connected to all of life.

In order to really fulfill yourself, you need to be doing and not "wasting" your energy on all the other stuff.

Sigh, if only I could get there. But I suppose writing is a good place to practice.

It's actually a great place to practice. Because it's private as long as you choose it to be. So it is a relatively comfortable way to work on being yourself without all the worries around it.

If, theoretically, I never read another thing out loud in class, or, I never read another thing to anyone ever or never publish or whatever, that is totally fine.

I don't feel totally OK with that last paragraph....... Oh, I do want to share my writing and I'd love to get published one day!

But to get to those points, I need to go through the process. It's like I want to skip a step and that is bad, very bad. :)

Oh life... Life need patience. Lots of it. LOTS OF IT! We really do live in a time of, I WANT IT NOW. And no, you shall not get it now because it is literally impossible. You first need to go through steps 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7.......

Patience...

I so often want things immediately. It's like I don't mail a letter to my sister because I know it is going to take a couple of weeks to get there. Meanwhile it's sitting in my purse! I hate the waiting period.

We need to start focusing more on the positive aspects of the waiting periods (the processes) and how they are ends unto themselves. Talk about how much we get out of them.

Everything in life is like a learning experience. Sigh... that is supposed to be a good thing.

Anyway, gotta go to sleep.

QE