I am back in touch with a guy I dated (2 dates) around 2 years ago. He wrote to me through a dating website not realizing it was me.
He was happy it's me. We are now on opposite sides of the world (Vancouver/Jerusalem).
We have now chatted twice online. It's just that I get myself into such a ridiculous emotional mix-up.
I started getting a crush on him and started having all these hopes of, Oh, maybe it will work out with him now...
And then I find myself constantly testing him. See, he's not the right person for me. He doesn't give me what I need. And I see that but I push it, test him, he obviously fails and then I feel sad, hurt and alone.
But it's all my doing. I so badly want to meet someone that I really connect with, that over and over again I get my hopes up about guys.
Blech. Don't even feel like writing about this anymore.
QE
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