I can't sleep

Why can't I sleep? Does it have to do with the time-change? But that doesn't make sense because it's still 1am "for me".

Today I thought of a few things I wanted to write here but now I don't know if I really feel like writing. I don't like when I want to write but I don't feel like writing.

My creative writing teacher quoted a certain writer as saying, "I only write when I'm inspired. And I make sure to be inspired every morning at 9:00." Such an amusing quote.

I'm currently reading Anne of Green Gables. I am watching the tv series with my friend so I was worried it would be difficult to read after watching. In the beginning it was but now mostly it's just really fun and enjoyable.

One woman in my writing course, I just love how she writes. In general how she expresses herself. She has such a way about her. It is utterly amusing. She has this totally funny, subtle sense of humour. She is very smart and sensitive. So those together make her writing so enjoyable.

Hmmm, I have those qualities as well. Pretty much...

Today I applied to a writing job, writing a recipe column. I went through stuff I've written to send an example. I was so impressed! It's nice to look back at what I've written because I see how much I've written and that so much of it is really quite good. It's quite impressive.

I don't know why I keep on wanting to use the word "utterly". Maybe Anne Shirley uses it.

It's utterly hilarious that people sometimes call her Anne Shirley. Shirley is her last name. Imagine someone calling you by your 1st and last name. Utterly amusing.

Speaking of using the same word over and over, this woman whose writing I utterly enjoy, has a great vocabulary. I often don't understand words she uses but I utterly get a kick out of how she uses them, even without understanding them. It is utterly fascinating. :) Do you feel like smacking me yet? Or should I say, do you utterly feel like utterly smacking me yet?

Gotta love it. Cuz if you aint lovin' it, you're hatin' it!

Are blogs evil? The reason I ask is because I'm just thinking. You can post (utterly?) anything in a blog. Anyone can have a blog about anything and they can write whatever they want.

So it's nice that people get to express themselves but, say, this posting I'm writing right now. Isn't it a waste of time? Wouldn't it be better if I wrote it and then deleted it? But instead I'm going to post it because, besides the fact that I fear delete, I sort of feel like I may as well post it because, well, maybe it isn't so bad and maybe someone will get something out of it.

Also, one day when I'm extremely, utterly famous, people will want to get their hands on anything and everything I've ever written. And once I've been gone from this world for a good few years, I'll allow this blog to be uncovered. And then, oh man! It'll become a book and it'll sell so many millions of copies in so many languages! Wow! And this posting will be especially famous (maybe my most famous piece ever written) because people will think it's utterly :) prophetic how I wrote here.

Amazing how she pretty much wrote, word for word, what actually happened!

It is going to be so exciting for people to get their hands on this stuff.

And then will start all the other bloggers who will claim that their blogs were actually written by me. But my writing is so distinctive that it will be almost impossible to get anyone to believe them. Maybe one person who is really, really smart and talented will be able to convince people about their blog being mine.

The debates between the "Deena experts" will be hot and personal. They'll hate each other. Half will think the guy's blog is mine while half will "know" it isn't.

Anyway, that's what's gonna happen with this posting and that is why, even though it's probably not gonna be read by anyone until years after I'm gone, I must post it!

QE