Can't sleep, too excited... but why?

I just lay in bed, trying to fall asleep. I should be fast asleep right now because I was sooo tired at Friday night dinner, so ready to come home and go straight to bed.

I pretty much went straight to bed but read, which is totally kosher in sleep world, but then I found myself wide awake, thinking about so many things.

I'm thinking of licencing myself here as a dietitian. That actually excites me, the idea of studying for the exam. The part about having to work through the bureaucracy totally makes me upset, though.

OK. So much for that. I just looked it up and the whole thing will cost over $1000.00. I'm sure I could find someone to pay for it (Bubby, Daddy, the older woman I work for?) but if someone else is paying for it I think I should be sure I'll work in it in order to have made it worth while but I can't commit to that because I hate working as a dietitian so if I were to be able to figure something else out, I'd be thrilled not to work in that field.

So then I think, why don't I just take clients in the house? OK, I can't really do that. I'd need to do the appointments in the living room and that would mean my roommate would have to hide during those times. No, not good.

Should I give nutrition classes? Sigh.... I always think of it but do I feel like it? Could I really make good money from it? I don't see how. How much do people pay for these things?

What do I like doing? I enjoyed planning my birthday party, besides being nervous about people showing up and having a good time. But I got really into it. I sent hard-copy invitations on pretty paper. I planned arts and crafts on a very tight budget and it was really fun! I made yummy food (with the help of my friend who hosted). It was really nice.

But the downside is that I didn't have the most amazing time at the party itself because the whole time I was worrying that everyone should be OK and happy. Especially the elderly woman. Oy. I was so stressed out about her!

It's really interesting. I mentioned to her that I don't know how I'll pay for university and she said, Don't worry about that. Would she actually pay for me to go to university? Imagine if she was sort of like my beneficiary. How unique to have a beneficiary. I'd live with her, almost never have to pay for food, not have to pay for university, do some work for her and hang out with her and she'd give me money for that. What a strange life that would be. Though my imagination goes wild with these kinds of things, it's very hard for me to believe it could actually happen. Things in life turn out so different than in the imagination. And they're usually way more complicated.

Tonight someone told me about a job lead that is for a couple of months, doing event planning. Could that be enjoyable for me? I think it might have a lot to do with who I'd be working with. Hopefully she'll want to meet me this week. I need to make sure my CV is good for this job.

K, I'm feeling very tired. I'm gonna try to go to sleep.

QE