"Jo, your one beauty!"

Yes, my hair. That, for those of you who don't know, is a quote from Little Women. Amy says it to Jo when Jo shows up with almost all her hair gone, because she sold it.

My hair. My poor hair. A couple of months ago it was a good bit below my shoulders. Then I got it cut to just below my shoulders. 2 days ago I cut it myself. I cut off a whole chunk so that it was covering a bit of my neck. It was actually a cute cut but I had made a mistake with the layers which made it look a little weird (most people didn't notice, they thought it was nice, but I couldn't stop noticing it) so the next day I cut off a whole other chunk. And today...... I cut more! Now I have what is almost a "boy's haircut." I've cut off so much!!! : (

I shouldn't frown because this is what I wanted to do. I've been dreaming of cutting off all my hair. For years, when I was in high school and after high school for a few years, I had very short hair. Like, seriously a "boy's haircut." For years I grew it out till it was long again. And my hair is really beautiful. But I hate taking care of it and I hate that it's hot. And I hate that it doesn't always look nice. Sometimes it looks weird. Cause, by the way, important piece of information, I have very thick, curly hair. This is important because it is the reason I can cut my own hair. even if it's not totally even, you can't really tell cause of the curls.

Anyway, I'm blabbing on and on because I'm really getting used to the idea that I have no hair again! It's what I wanted! IT'S WHAT I WANTED!!!!! I've been dreaming of chopping it off. But I also want long hair. I want long hair one day, short hair the next. And I don't want it to take years to grow out.

But it will. WAAAAAAAH!!!! It's gonna take years to grow out, though my hair has been growing quickly, lately. Oh man. In a year my hair will maybe, maybe maybe be to my shoulders. I doubt it.

I just remembered something. One of the reasons I grew out my hair the last time was because my aunt regretted having short hair at her wedding. So, I decided I wanted to be sure to have long hair at mine.

That just makes me laugh because for years I've been dating and I didn't get married. You know what, if I actually meet a guy and we decide we want to spend the rest of our lives together, but my hair is short at the wedding, I will be the happiest person! Because I've met a guy I want to be with the rest of my life! Yay that!

Oh my hair. Good thing time cures all. I mean, besides my hair that will grow back (if I decide to let it), I'm gonna get used to this new haircut. I just need to get used to it.

I can't believe I cut off all those beautiful curls!

Oh get over it! They were nice but they annoyed you all the time.

THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED!!!

Amazing what one goes through with their hair. Those strands of dead cells on the top of their head. Beautiful, really beautiful.

I think one of the things that makes it so hard is what everyone else says. My family says they really liked my long hair. I have such beautiful hair and now you can't tell. The long hair was nicer. This is nice but... : (

And, Isaac told me he loved my hair long and that I shouldn't cut it. Would he think I'm not beautiful anymore? I'm sure not. But part of me wanted to do it to free myself from him. A little drastic, I'd say. : ) But it was part of what made me do it. Crazy world.

QE