I'm seriously leaving on a jet plane and I'm over Isaac

Unbelievable. So, he wanted to meet me and I was like, well it's probably not a great idea but lets pretend we don't know that so we can meet.

So we met and guess what! Well, I guess you know from the subject. I realized I'm pretty over him. I still think he's a great guy but I just felt very strongly that it's not It between us. I felt so much how we were on a different wave-length. And I've thought a lot about the fact that I need someone more open-minded about religion.

Since we broke up, I've had the opportunity to build a fantasy of him in my mind. Nothing totally crazy but thoughts about how maybe it'll work later and how cute and sweet he is. But seeing him gave me the opportunity to face reality. Yay! I was/am just so happy to feel free from him.

It's still sad because he still is so many things to me (read other postings). It really is sad. But it's good, if it's true.

On a different note, I'm leaving tomorrow night for Toronto. I just brought down bags to my room so I can consider packing. : ) I still have laundry to finish. Oy. I still have these last-minute things to do that are stressing me out. Also, my cousin is arriving in Israel tomorrow morning and I offered to pick him up even though I'm leaving that day. My family makes a point of picking each other up at the airport, wherever we may be. And I am happy he finally took me up on it. But it's crazy because I suppose I could have used those few hours for other things.

It's funny because since I'm arriving at 6:20am in Toronto, my sister there can't pick me up till much later. So, today I was chatting with another cousin and I asked him if he could pick me up. Anyway, he is! I'm so happy and appreciative of that. It's not a fun hour to pick someone up. It's much more enjoyable late at night or later in the day. But he said he'll do it. He said he sort of feels like he owes me for all the times I took him to and from the airport when he visited Israel. Pretty funny!

Should go do something useful, though blogging is way useful!

QE