Feeling good

Last night was my first "day" at work. Overnight telemarketing. Too funny. But last night and tonight are training days. Probably we'll be on the phones by Tuesday night.

I'm feeling good. The job is crazy and I'm not sure I'm going to enjoy it. I'm a little worried about that. I'm also worried about the people I have to work with. Some are a little annoying. Also, I'm the only available female in the room. There are some guys who aren't available but all in all, there is a lot of room for hem's and ha's about feelings going on between the boys and me. Seriously, there was some sort of weird thing that often people would talk specifically to me. It's hard to explain. In short, I feel different for being "the girl." Whatev. I wanna try to take things easy. No reason to freak out, even if some guy does seem to be "liking" me or whatever. Big deal. So, I'll just not like him back. That doesn't mean I can't talk to him or look him in the eye.

Seriously, you might think I'm kidding but I'm not. I have a hard time looking someone in the eye if I am worried he likes me "too much."

Besides that, there is a guy who wrote to me online. He seems very nice and sensitive. We've been writing back and forth about religious issues because I'm not in the mind set to get involved with a guy who is gung-ho religious. I need someone who, whatever he believes, he is also able to understand and appreciate and support his partner believing something else. That's complicated. I wonder if it's even possible. But this guy actually might have that ability. He knows that he wants to be religious but he seems to be able to understand that that's not where I am. I think he understands that that's OK and he said he hopes I don't go through my journey alone. That I have someone to support me the whole way. That was so sweet of him to say. I'm so touched by that.

So we'll see what comes of that.

QE