Always feeling guilty

Why do I always have to feel so guilty? Why do I have to worry so much about what people think/feel about things I say/do/don't do/don't say? I hate it!

I took a job selling baseball tickets. It's an overnight job. But suddenly I remembered that if I work the regular hours Sunday night, I will be too tired to go to my beloved non-diet course Monday morning. So I called my new boss to tell him I would like to work until 2 am on Sunday instead of 5 am (well, it's actually Monday). It was an annoying conversation. He wasn't hearing me. He was running ahead with some crazy idea of going straight to the course after working all night and then crashing afterwards. I mentioned working till 2 am and he didn't really hear/listen to me. So then I said, "Are you not willing to be at all flexible with the hours?" to which he replied, "But you're not giving me any options!" to which I replied, "I want to work only till 2 am on Sundays." to which he replied, "OK. That I'm willing to do."

I'm such a nervous wreck right now, wondering what he thinks of me after this. Did I do anything wrong?

From my side, I did exactly what I needed to do. The main reason I'm sticking around here for another couple of months is because I want to finish the course which I love. So, if I were to take a job that didn't allow me to go to the course, I may as well just stop working and leave the country! It would be totally backwards! So, I needed to do that. Truth is, I'd even have said 1 am but I was afraid that was too chutzpadik.

From his side, how does this come across? I just accepted the job and I'm already changing the "rules?" Or can he see the logic? Is it really annoying for me? He really, really liked me in the interview and was very happy I was joining... How does that change how he'd feel after our conversation?

Blah blah blah blah blah... In short, I need to just get over feeling all nervous about this because hopefully it will work out and I did what I had to do. I'd be so much more upset if I didn't say anything. At least now he knows about this problem and it won't be a shocker when I need to figure out a solution (hopefully leaving at 2 am will be good enough a solution).

Why do I need to feel so badly? Why do I need to worry so much? I don't understand.

QE