Woe unto me

I am slowly going crazy... As the song so eloquently goes. Why? Of course boy stuff.

But lets discuss the title of this posting for a moment.

Woe unto me originates in Job:

Job 10:15 If I be wicked, woe unto me; and if I be righteous, yet will I not lift up my head. I am full of confusion; therefore see thou mine affliction;

For more on this phrase and others, check out [[http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/413900.html]].

Geez... I mean, he really meant it when he said it, didn't he? He lost his whole family and everything he had even though he was considered a good guy. That is the big question of the book: Bad things happening to good people.

Anyway, but I have my own, personal Woe is me.

I mean, I just can't take it!!!!!!! Is this guy coming to visit or not? And can he not at least keep me somewhat updated on the plans? I'm sure by now he has an idea of it it's leading to yes or no... Leaving me hanging like this is torture.

Because meanwhile I'm killing myself thinking, thinking, thinking... Thinking about him and us and me and wondering if there even is any potential. I'm wondering if I got ahead of myself in getting excited about him. I read our email exchanges and wonder.

I don't know him! I know almost nothing about him. Last email I wrote him, I asked him for his last name. I don't think I'm going to do anything with it (well, besides googling it, of course) but it bothers me that he doesn't write his name in his emails so that when you get a letter from him, in the "From" it just states the beginning of his email address.

OK... But as I mentioned, I don't know him. That is for the good too. It is possible he is way the coolest best guy ever and I just don't know him yet. There have been things in his emails that I have absolutely loved. That is why I have this major crush on him. So it's possible he doesn't always answer everything I ask him because he is private. It's also possible he has unpleasant answers for some of the questions and prefers not to answer over email. And, btw, it is possible he doesn't love email.

Oh G-d... This search for a life partner sure is tough, to say the least.