My letter to the boy

Boy,

What can I say? I'm upset. What can I do... I am. You tell me you might be coming to my country and then for days you aren't in touch with me with an update regarding your tentative trip.

You know, there are a lot of things that impressed me very positively, when we were in touch by email a couple of months ago. Because of this, when you said you might be coming, I got very excited (not to mention nervous out of my mind). And then I start feeling so stupid when you aren't even in touch with me about the trip.

Why can't you send me 1 email? Do you still not get that I need that? You emailed me a couple of days ago and meanwhile, no more. WHAT IS GOING ON!?!?!?! I don't understand why you can't at least send me an email, even if it's an email stating that you still don't know if you're coming or not.

You know, to me that is just normal. To update the other person, even if the update is that there is no update.

So maybe you have this great reason for not being able to email me yesterday and the day before, right? OK, please tell me because I don't wanna be upset with you. I want to like you. I really do... But right now I'm upset and I need to know what's going on.

You know, I've considered just calling the whole thing off. What do I need this for? But, I really want to meet you in person, at least once, so I can see how you are in person. I can find out if my daydreams about you are at all true.

Queen Esther