Fictitious letter

This is to just let you know that I didn't actually send the letter that I wrote in the post before this one. It's hard to be upset at someone you don't know at all. I so don't want to make a bad impression on him, even though I know I should just be myself. It's hard to trust that there is someone out there who will like you in spite of or because of your quirkiness.

So, it is a fictitious letter to just get it off my chest. We'll see what happens in the end. I'm going so freakin' crazy, just waiting to hear from him. I guess maybe if he realized how it affects me, he'd be more considerate about this. So possible he doesn't think it's been a long time since he wrote last. And that there is no reason to email me unless it's with his plans. That is one of the reasons I don't want to tell him I'm upset. Because it's totally possible he just thinks and sees things differently than me (I mean, 100% that he does because we are 2 different people) and I do want to give this a chance so... I shall continue suffering in silence, while screaming virtually right here. : )