End of the guy story

So, after being pretty much as nervous as is possible before a date, finally I met the guy of which I have spoken quite a bit here in the past few days.

He came to my side of the world and gave me a day of his time here.

It was quite a bumming out experience, if you can say that. So sad. So upsetting.

On the one hand, we actually had quite a unique connection about many things. You know, when you feel like you really do understand what the other person is really trying to say? And when he says, "I know what you mean," it feels as though he really does? So, that happened on the date. And so often I actually really, really appreciated what he thought and said about things.

Except...............

He looked at me too much, if you know what I mean. And he kept saying things. I mean, they could totally be taken as compliments, and I guess in a way they are, but when they aren't said at the right time, G-d it is such a turn-off.

For example, he was telling me a story and then he started telling me another story but then he stopped and mentioned that maybe he's talking too much. When I said it was fine and that I wanted to hear the story, he said it is his pleasure to tell it in order to get me to laugh like that again because he loved when I laughed how I do. ***BLUSH!!!***

And he kept saying what a nice time he was having. He wished he didn't have to leave...

The totally, absolutely worst part, though, was when we were walking and he kept getting too close to me. And then we went into a bookstore and while we were talking, he kept coming too close so I'd have to take a step back and seriously I felt I was gonna end up on the other side of the freakin' store because of that!

But I'm not finished. The grand finale was when he leaned towards me and wispered something to me about another woman in the store, while meanwhile taking the opportunity to take a sniff of my hair. "Your hair smells really nice," he said. "Thank you," I answered, taking a giant step away from him.

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As I mentioned, I'm religious. I don't expect a guy to be like that with me. I expect there to be distance. But then I'm thinking, "I'm not that religious so what can I expect from guys I'm gonna date?"

So today I spoke to a girl I'm friends with who isn't religious. I asked her if it's accepted in her circles for a guy to touch a girl (hold hands, touch her hair...) on a 1st date. She said not unless the whole date is only a fling. Otherwise no. And she told me how the 2nd time her and her now husband met, they sat in his room all night talking and he didn't once make a move to touch her. She respected that so much because it showed he was serious.

That is one of the most beautiful stories I've ever heard.

Anyway, the whole date is upsetting because I did like a lot about his mind. But he was a little weird, he was too horny and he's just not for me.

So now I'm freaked out by internet dating, again. I say again because I'm sure it's not my 1st time being freaked out by it.

There are things you can know through net dating while not through blind dates and visa versa. But the whole thing of just knowing that the guy is basically normal, I'm thinking you can know much more through set-ups. Someone has met him (hopefully) and seen that he isn't a freak.

I think I will need some time to get over this date because I can't really get myself to look into any new options right away. I guess I just hope I will get over it because, well, I do want to meet the love of my life... I wish so much I could just meet him somewhere natural.