The big question: Why an anonymous blog?

As I think I mentioned, on my yucky date the other evening, the guy said he couldn't understand what would make a person want to have an anonymous blog. Of course it prompted me to respond (I think only in my head because I was not feeling in the emotion-sharing mood with him at all), "I love the idea! I'm going to get one started asap."

Why, though do I like the idea?

So pretty much it is supposed to be a diary, not necessarily about what happens but really, really, what am I feeling about things. The big, humongous difference between this and a regular diary is that it is specifically in a place where, theoretically, anyone can see it. A diary is supposed to be written in a book that you put away in a place where hopefully no one will read it.

Why do we want to write our deepest secrets in a way so that the closest people to us won't read it but anyone else can?

Firstly, I think it's preferable over a book because this way, there is much less of a chance of someone I know reading it. If it is a book, it is harder to keep away from hands of others. Supposedly I trust those who are close to me but in the past, I have thought of things I wanted to write and I didn't write them because I felt bad to put it on paper, one of the reasons being that someone one day might read it.

But still, why do I want strangers to read this? It's a hard question.

One possibility is that maybe I'd get feedback from strangers about things I'm scared to bring up with people I'm close to and it will give me strength to be open with my close ones because those feelings are accepted by the blog reader. Got it? In other words, I'm testing out my feelings in safe waters.

That really is the main reason I can think of. The bottom line is that we want to be liked, loved, accepted. And there is so much about myself that I am scared can't be liked, loved, accepted. This gives me a chance to express those parts of me, test them on others and see how they take it.

But there is the possibility that no one will read my blog ever. Then what? Then what is the point?

If I wasn't so tired, I'd try to think of a reasons for that.

Good day/night/eve/afternoon.